I only 'went' Black in Dec 2011, though I have spent the past 2 years building up to it I guess, I am not wild or weird in any way, I am a married white female, love my hubby, but as he has gotten' older, he has gained a lot of weight and I have stopped finding him sexually attractive. I worked on that by trying to 'spice' up our sex life with 'games' to give me an edge so I could continue to have sex with him. It was during these 'games' that HE brought out an IR video, and began to tease my mind about what I would do with a Black Cock, well... it was like lighting a fuse, I began to search IR site's and joined a few, I have immersed myself almost completely...and secretly into what has become an addiction to all things IR. I am not a size freak, I have had very large white cocks in my time, so though Black Cocks do tend to be above the average size it isnt their size that counts. I think what I find attractive is their apparent confidence sexually. I read up on a few things and I agree that Balck Men are definately natures ALPHA equivalent of the King of the Jungle, for us, obviously the Concrete Jungle. I found I automatically wanted to be more submissive to Black Men sexually, it just seemed right, as nature intended. I don't take any crap from any man outside the bedroom, or non-sexually, infact I can be quite a control freak in a relationship. But I WANT to be submissive sexually to a Black Men. Not a dorrmat, and if he thought submission meant he could knock me around, he would soon find out that was not the case. Another thing I have dicovered about myself since deciding to be Black Only sexually with men, I have dicovered I am now fantasising about being with another woman, especially a much younger woman who has enough experience with women to also know how to how to 'train' me sexually to her needs. I have never had sex with a woman, yet... but I find these thoughts amazingly hot, and if as it did with Black Cock, the opportunity arises in the future, I know I will submit to anothyer woman sexually too!
I have had sex with 1 Black Man 7 times over 4 meetings so far, I absolutely know I have made a lifestyle choice that will not change. I have not told my hubby yet, and am not sure I want him either knowing or to be involved, all this cuckolding stuff seems like it could be hard work for the 'cuckoldress' and inconvenient if she simply wants to have a private sexual relationship with her Bull(s). But hey, who knew I would be here now, so who knows what the future holds... Also, I think there is a truth in the science that the more Black Cock Cum you swallow or take into your body, the more your body craves Black Cock. I was never that fond of sucking let alone swallowing, but I find I really want to suck Black Cock and I feel honoured if I am allowed, or instructed, to swallow his cum...I can't get enough of it! I cannot perceive that I will ever desire white cock again, sex with hubby has fizzled out completely this past year, and we are more like platonic friends these days, it is wierd but it works. I do ask myself if I am being fair on him, andif he was to 'cheat' on me, i'd divorce his ass... that's so wrong on so many levels, but that's the way it is. If he 'tried' his luck, I fain tiredness and encourage him to wank off himself, I will even allow him to look at my breasts whilst he does, but I pull away if he tries to touch. I feel I am harsh in a way on him, but in another way I also feel I am being kind and generous to him, after all, I don't need him sexually ever again, If I divorce him I would get the house and half his pension, so in a way he is remaining in an otherwise loving enviroment, I look good on his arm, which is good for his business, I have a good body and he gets to play with himself while he gets a private viewing of me. he just has to learn, he now has limits... I guess in a way, I am cuckolding him but he doesn't need to know that...yet.
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