Username: Sissy Chloe Cocksucker Date: 21-04-2020 15:00:23 Mood: in love Music:

After our first black Bull made me understand who and what I really was I started wearing panties and lingerie. The first time I slipped into a pair of thigh highs it was exhilarating and so feminizing. By the time I rolled the second stocking up onto my thigh my pathetic little clit squirted my sissy milk into my panties. As usual there was no holding back and no ability to stop it. It was actually a pretty impressive load for a sissy. Yes I did take my panties off and lick them clean.

Username: Sissy Chloe Cocksucker Date: 26-04-2020 11:20:23 Mood: horny Music:

I’d love to have some opinions from anyone that cares to comment. As a sissy I believe that I should be wearing stockings as much as possible and I do love to wear them as you can see from my pictures. So here is the question that I would like people to weigh in on. Remember I like to look slutty. Should I wear my black stockings with backseams Should I wear fishnet stockings, usually black? Thank you in advance. I would love to hear especially what Black Bulls think, but I want to hear from everyone

Username: Sissy Chloe Cocksucker Date: 27-04-2020 16:55:15 Mood: horny Music:

I know if people read this they will disagree with me and probably give negative opinions. But this is my opinion in my belief and it only applies to myself and the superior black men that use me as their fuck hole. Some call them selves gay and only fuck men and Sissy's, some are bisexual and like sissies and pussy. Some are straight but willing to pump their nut into some Sissy to relieve the pressure in their big beautiful balls.

I believe that black men become even more manly when they don't have hangups about fucking white sissies ....when black man fuck me I'm dressed like a woman and as feminine as I can be. They like my tight sissy pussy and as a matter of fact once they fucked a cuck or a sissy they find out that it's just another hole to shove their cock in and drain their balls into.

They like to fuck. They're very good at fucking. Sissy's like me are not and never were good for anything but taking cock, & we are excellent pieces of ass. Black men enjoy showing their superiority to me when we are together. They understand the control that they have over us, satisfying our needs and being able to just empty their balls at any time. Remember, they're not fucking a man. They are fucking sissies. The next closest thing to a woman. Total failures at being a man, feminized for the black man's use. Warm wet white holes made to provide pleasure to BBC.

There is no commitment, no relationship, just two fresh holes to stick their cocks into. We serve superior BBC without question. It's our duty and a responsibility. We can't get pregnant and we never have periods. They know that we will do whatever they want sexually and that we will love it. They can experiment with us and do things with us that maybe some women will not allow.

In my mind BBC's fucking whites regardless of whether they are male or female is only proper. It's what we we made for. 
 

Username: Sissy Chloe Cocksucker Date: 03-05-2020 14:24:33 Mood: horny Music:

What does a sissy need? I suppose there are differences for each one of us as well as similarities. For me there are two things that I need regularly. First and above everything else, I need to serve/worship BBC. I second I need to have Sissy sucks. That is to say sex with other Sissies. My wife’s first black lover very quickly and easily stripped away any false sense of masculinity that I had. I’m not here to pleasure women. I’m not capable of pleasuring a woman. I gave up my rights and claims to be any kind of a man so that I could be a black cock worshiping Sissy. I cannot deny who I am and 1 am. There is no greater pleasure for me then knowing that the superior black man that is using me is receiving the ultimate and pleasure with nothing expected in return. I am nothing more than a cock sucking, cum and piss drinking, sissy whore. When a black man uses me and humiliate me verbally at the same time I go into the ultimate state of euphoria, the place where I have multi Sissygasms. My other need is for the much more feminine, pretty, sexy, failure as a man sissy sex. A sweet smelling painted Sissy dressed like a slut feeding me her clitty and her sissy cream in both holes is a very happy place for me. You see I’m a sissy for a sissy. My Sissy girlfriends are always tops or at least have the ability to tap. I’ve had a lot of sissy cream shot inside of my sissy cunt. These are my two favorite things in the two things that this sissy must have to survive. If you are a Sissy or a black bull and you would like to comment about your needs please do 💋💋Chloe💋💋

Username: Sissy Chloe Cocksucker Date: 21-04-2020 14:55:42 Mood: happy Music:

First let me apologize for the length of this. I think it needs to be explained and it's entirety to give the best understanding.

I've been asked this question by other cucks, hobbies, boyfriends.

The easiest answer is to say I did not "become"a sissy faggot. I've always been a sissy faggot, I just needed a real man to make me understand.

When my wife and I got into the lifestyle we started swinging with white guys at my urging because I knew I wasn't satisfying her sexually. She was constantly horny and ready to fuck 24 seven. She did everything to try to make my little useless dick hard. Shaving her cunt hairless, calling me at work to tell me she had a big dildo buried in her tight asshole making me listen while she came. Offering me her body as a submissive to abuse her in anyway that might make me hard and make me a better lover. All of these failed. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing and hearing all of these things. I didn't understand why I had such a terrible time getting hard for her. I did fuck her pussy a few times. it was rare however. If I could get hard and get inside I could only last about three pumps sometimes only pushing inside was enough. She would beg me to try to last but I never could. Most of the time I couldn't even get inside and I popped my little load on the outside of her pussy. As soon as I unloaded I was completely limp. During the time that I was able to shoot inside of her I always enjoyed sucking my load back out and I became a very good pussy eater and could make her cum a lot. 

anyway moving on, I finally convinced her to fuck some other man but she wanted me to participate with her as well. We did this a few times and she did have fun. The only difference was these guys could fuck her longer than I could but they still weren't getting her there. I was eating their nut out of her every time.

we had been watching some interracial porn and even at the time I didn't realize I was fixated on the BBC's. It wasn't the women getting fucked that interested me it was those huge dark cocks. We would fantasize during these movies and I would eat her and ask her if she'd like to have a real cock like black men have. She would always moan and start orgasming as soon as I would mention it. They were usually very strong orgasms.

afterwords we would talk about it and she would admit that she really enjoyed the fantasy but she thought that black man having big cocks was more of a myth and it was only the rare few that were in porn that actually had these huge cocks.

it took some work but I finally convinced her to go black. We met an awesome real man and spent some time chatting before we decided to get together. On the day we never to meet him, I helped her get ready. I drew her bath. I helped her wash, I shaved her sweet tight pussy and asshole. I was prepping her to have sex with another man hopefully a man that was so much better than me. Her married pussy was soaking wet but she wouldn't let me stick my tongue inside of her. She did however let me stick my tongue up her asshole. I prefer to do that anyway.

we met with our new black lover and he instantly took over as the man. Nothing forceful or mean but definitely the one controlling what was going on. They sat down on the hotel bed and he was kissing her very very deeply and passionately as his big dark hands groped her 40C tits. it was only a matter of seconds before her hand was looking for his big black cock.

I have to tell you that once she pulled it out and begin stroking it with her left hand the first thing I noticed was her wedding ring on her finger sliding up and down his big dark cock. I haven't even gotten my pants off to play with myself before I shot my cream in my underwear. The odd part was that I didn't lose my horniness after that. I always had before and especially when we tried to have sex.

I sat mesmerized yes he just controlled everything she did and had her exactly as he wanted. He didn't ask her if she wanted to try this or that he just made her do it. This was one of the things that she needed and I could never realize that prior to this point. I watched his cock swell and grow. It was so shiny with her spit all over it as she blew him. Even just a blow job I could see a difference in her lust having a real cock.

while she was sucking his cock he told me to stick a couple fingers in her pussy to see if she was wet. I already knew the answer but of course did as I had been told. Her pussy was wetter than I had ever seen. I told him that. He said that's what big black cock does to wives with wimp husbands. That was the first time he had referred to me in a negative and I couldn't believe how excited it made me instantly. And he asked my wife if that was true? All she could do was moan ''mmm hmm'' as he wasn't taking his cock out of her mouth. I think that may have turned me on even more than him calling me a wimp.

At this point I may have been hotter than she was to see his superior BBC in her married white pussy.

All of these feelings of mine were beginning to come together but I still didn't realize that I am a sissy faggot.

He had me finish undressing her and then told her to lay on the bed. She spread her legs as wide as she could as she climbed on top of her. The contrasting color of their skin together was and still to this day when I see it with any white and black is amazing!

He never asked her anything before sliding that beautiful cock inside of hairless married pussy. I saw a completely different woman before me. Different facial expressions, deeper moaning and grunting, inability to form words, his beautiful big black cock coated in a white foam that I had never seen before.

he kept telling me that now she knew what it was to have a real man fucking her instead of a wimp like me. He asked me if I liked seeing a BBC using my wife. I remember saying yes and his response was, "You say yes Sir, wimp" Yes Sir I blurted out.

This was the very second that the light came on like flipping a switch and I realized my inferiority to a superior black man combined with my failure as a man. I instantly realized that my eyes were fixed on his big hairless black balls and cum covered black shaft. I also realized that this very second but what I really wanted was to suck his cock. This never happened when she fucked a white guy in front of me. 
By this time I realize that he had been fucking the shit out of her. She was moaning, crying, totally incoherent when she tried to speak. She had her legs wrapped around his back and was pulling every inch of that cock as deep into her cunt as she could and she was fucking him back hard. Something else I had never seen. He picked up the pace and then buried his beautiful cock as far in as it would go as he unleashed all of his black baby making seed deep into her married white pussy. After he was done my wife begged him not to take his cock out of her, but of course he did. He went into the bathroom to clean up while I took a close-up look. Her Pussy was stretched open, red and puffy. I leaned in  and touched her clit with my tongue. She exploded in orgasm which forced her asked to come up off the bed and pushed her freshly filled cunt right onto my mouth.

Her pussy was delicious. His Blackseed tasted so much better than mine and instantly I was digging deep. I have never tasted anything like it in the only thing I was concerned about was getting every drop of his nut into my belly

I don't know how long he had been watching and honestly I haven't even been thinking about him when I heard him say "looks like we got us a white bitch boy here" he came over to the bed and made out with my wife while I continue to clean her well used/properly used pussy. After I finished we sat and talked. I could feel his nut drying on my face. I really liked it.

Remember this was my wife's first BBC. She looked me right in the face and reassured me how much she loved me and how much more she loved me now for opening up a whole new world to her. The next words were surprising but completely understood. She said that my dick was useless and that it would never touch her again. She asked me if I understood why. Of course was my answer and it was a true answer because of what I had just seen.I can say with certainty that no white guy ever fucked her like this and probably had no business fucking women either.

after we got home we talked some more and she fed me her pussy again. This time sitting on my face and a lot more seed poured out of her. As she rode my face she informed me that there would be some changes.

over the course of the next week we discussed our love for one another and how that would never change. She never did make any other demands of me or treat me in a cruel way but she would not explain her statement about changes in the future. 
Later in the week he called and to my surprise he only wanted to talk to me. He told me that he would have a hotel room and that he wanted just me to meet him Friday afternoon.

I wondered if this could be one of the changes. 
I went to the hotel and went upstairs. I found his room number and knocked on the door. I was a little surprised allbeit pleasantly when he open the door and was completely naked. He stepped off to the side and I stepped in. The door closed and the next words out of his mouth were "on your knees faggot" I think out of surprise I resisted for a second when he just put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me down to my knees. There I was with this beautiful big black cock right in front of my face. The same cock that made my wife cut me off just a few days prior. I reached up & lifted his beautiful uncut cock. I had never felt anything like it. So thick and heavy! "Suck it now faggot" is the next thing I heard. I open my mouth and wrapped my lips around that beautiful cock. 

As I tasted his delicious cock my childhood came rushing back to me. All of a sudden I remembered sucking my friends little dicks when I was a kid. Why had I forgotten that? I remembered how much I liked it. I started sucking this big black cock harder, getting it very wet licking up and down the shaft and taking his balls in my mouth. I found myself wanting to be the best cocksucker he had ever experienced. His cock grew and swelled and he was moaning. I realized the power of being a cock sucker. At this point I thought he was fully hard as he pulled out of my mouth and started slapping my face with his cock. He told me to get out of my clothes and get on the bed on my hands and knees. I couldn't do it fast enough. I knew he was going to fuck me and I realized that I wanted it. He wasn't going to ask me. He was just going to take what he wanted. I begin to understand immediately how submissive I am. I felt his big fingers spreading cold lube around my asshole before one finger went in quickly followed by a second. He pumped them in and out a few times and it felt so good then he stuck a couple fingers from each hand inside & pulled my hole open. Wow was I tight!! after a few minutes of manipulating me I felt a little more lube and then he placed the head of his beautiful BBC against my asshole. I had never been fucked before this. He began to push & shortly the head was inside. I remember feeling the tightness, but also thinking it felt pretty wonderful. He began to work in deeper. I guess a couple inches at a time. Now I was kind of changing my mind about the feeling. It wasn't nearly as pleasant as a matter of fact the deeper he went the more it hurt. It didn't matter because he wasn't going to stop. I'm not sure how long it took but he was finally balls deep inside of me. He held it there for a minute then he begin to slowly pull all the way out and go all the way back in. I was completely full in one second and completely empty and the next. I was beginning to enjoy the fall feeling much more than the empty feeling. He had me and he knew it. As he fucked me he began talking to me. He told me he knew I was a sissy faggot the first time he looked at me. He kept asking me how much I liked getting fucked, how much I love black cock, why else would I give my wife to a black man unless I knew how much better that cock really was. He was so right I was answering all of his questions and begging for him to fuck me. He told me that I no longer had an asshole. He had turned it into a pussy for BBC. So now I always refer to it as my pussy. Usually my sissy pussy because that's what it is. He continued to create my pussy until he completed it by breeding me. He came so hard I could literally feel it filling me up. When he was done he made me suck his slimy cock. Once again I couldn't get my lips around it fast enough. I could certainly taste my ass but I could still taste the flavor of his thick rich seed. Together it was the most delicious thing I've ever tasted. as I cleaned every last drop from him he explained to me that from now on I would shave my body and wear lingerie, especially for him. He did warn me however never to offer to serve any BBC without dressing for it. He explained to me that I had always been a sissy faggot. I was made to pleasure other men and other sissies but not women. That was the job of a real man like him. Again I remembered sucking cock as a kid. He was right. I thought I had to be straight because of societal pressures. I acted that way for many years but my failure to perform in bed was a key factor. I was interested in cock not pussy. I have never felt the level of excitement that I felt then and every time a black man uses me or when I have gay sex with another sissy. It's who I am and it's who I always have been. Cocks & sissy clits are what makes me happy sexually

When I got home my wife was waiting for me with several gift boxes. She had gone to the store and purchased lingerie, stockings, and heels for me to wear. She had also purchased perfume and lipstick along with nail polish. she told me that as long as I had a pussy now that sexually she would consider me a pussyboi. She made me tell her the details of my experience and showed me the pictures that he had sent her from his phone. She asked me how I like the feeling of having my pussy filled with his black babies. She made me turn around and pull down my pants so she could look at my pussy. She commented that it looked red and well used before she stuck a couple fingers inside. Then she stuck them in my mouth. I cleaned them hungrily. She called me a faggot and slapped me on my ass. I squirted in my shorts again.

Pussy free for 16 years and I couldn't be any happier about that. I don't miss pussy at all.

I know there are a lot of different opinions on what determines whether or not someone is gay. That's not what I'm looking for here and not what I want to hear about. If it's not for you that's fine. I do not consider one of the black men that has fucked me to be gay. There have been some bisexual black men that openly claim to be bisexual and once again that's fine. I don't care if they fuck women too, as long as they fuck me.

I believe that black men are supposed to use Sissy's like me. They keep us in line and they train us how to serve. They use us as cum dumps and don't have to worry about getting us pregnant. They don't have to worry about our time of the month or us ever saying no. It helps to reinforce their superiority over us and our inferiority to them. Sissies need to be used and most of us like feeling feminine. We like to know what it's like to feel like the woman that's getting fucked and we want the best fuck we can get too. That of course is BBC.

Other Sissy's that I know and that I have played with have all  considered themselves gay sissy fairy faggots. We get off on it. We need it. And we love to be called those names by black men. The dirtier they talk & the more they humiliate the more we want to please them.

so I guess the short answer it's not about becoming a gay sissy faggot, its the realization that I always have been.