Username: Siresmith Date: 06-02-2014 03:14:49 Mood: don't know Music:

So exciting, my master found an ad on another site and responded.

He connected me with the man and I chatted with him a bit online, then on the phone.  You know the kind of conversations that starts out with the normal realm of "tell me about yourself" and ends up in the "I can feel you pumping into me" as I begged my master to let me masturbate.

I was so excited, I was masturbating and jumping my master (husband) after every conversation with this guy.

Arrangments were made to meet.  I think I was wet constantly starting Wednesday when we made the arrangements right up until Saturday evening when I was getting ready.

But then, the what ifs hit.

What if we met and he didn't like me... what if it isn't as good as I hope...I gave in to the what ifs and cancelled.

I feel so bad, I disappointed my master, I disappointed the guy I was supposed to meet and I feel like I really let myself down.

I really wanted to feel his cock, to taste the sweat on his balls, feel the slick sensation of his precum on my tongue... but I chickened out.

What do I do, how do I get over the fear and into the action???