Interracial Forums - Girlfriend is with me bUT I know she still wants bbc

Several years ago, my girlfriend had a year and a half long affair with a bbc. She would take turns hiding it and flaunting it in my face. She supposedly was working for the guy, but it was obvious she was fucking him. She even came home drunk one day telling me how big his dick was, said she bumped into it. When she would come home from fucking him and I tried to fucki her, she couldn't even feel me, and I've got an 9" cock. We fought every day about her going to his shop, e end after I found notes signed love she wrote him
Well, he knocked her up, even asked me to take a photo of her and the baby before she gave it up for adoption.
She told me first he raped her, which I didn't believe, then she said she didn't know what happened.

We split up and 12 years later she shows up again
Starts by telling me if she hadn't fucked him she would have lost her job. Bulls hit also. Then she tells me she would drink a beer and pass out and wake up covered in cum in the back seat of one of the other guys that worked there's cars.
I know she loved getting fucked by all those bbc, but now she has a racist tattoo and claims she hates black guys. I can tell by talking to her that's not the case. I know my cock will never compare with the ones she loved so much, so I want to step aside, but how do I get her back with the bbc she loves? She likes bond age and booze, I thought about getting her drunk,tying her up, blindfoldin her and have some 12" bbc break her back in. That way she could claim she didn't know, and that would put her back on the path she needs to be on, but it feels kinda sleazy. Any ideas?