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Originally Posted by CUCK WATCHER
Seven months ago, my wife Amanda and I got started on putting our lives back together after being involved in the cuckold lifestyle. I knew it wasn't going to happen overnight after being in the lifestyle for years. When she began having sex for the fun of it with other men, we started down a rabbit hole. When everything got way to complicated, it was a lot harder to climb out of that hole than it was going down. There was a time when I would have sworn our marriage was finished. But, somewhere deep down we needed each other.
Here we are together seven months later. Honestly, it's not the same and I don't know if it ever will be. I still have dreams where I'm reliving seeing her having sex with black men. Watching her sucking a dude's cock then seeing her licking his cum off her beautiful lips like it was the best thing she ever tasted. And the thing is these dreams seriously excite me in a way that I am bummed out when I wake up and realize it was only a dream. I still have the urge, if you know what I mean. I guess that's why I re-posted some pics and videos to my profile.
I don't know how it is for her, because she is better at hiding her thoughts, at least it seems like she is. But, I got to believe that even though life in general is better now, she still thinks about the sex she had with her black men.
Time will tell how it works out.
John
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Would love to hear the whole story (send private if you prefer), but we went thru this also. What started out as something to add spice to our bedroom became an all encompassing lifestyle choice for her that eventually involved drugs, whoring her out, a desire to become a streetwalker for one guy, and she was going out 5-6 nights a week, dragging home at 4-5 AM, sleep a couple hours, drag in to work, do a piss poor job there, drag home and sleep until 10-11 pm, and start it all over again..........she was a well know top executive at a well know comany in town and absolutely NO one would believe what she was doing after work hours and she was about to blow it all over the lifestyle.
After she left on a Friday evening "for a few hours" and disappeared until LATE Sunday night when what was left of her was dropped off in front of our home by a group of LOUD Black guys that made it definitely obvious what they were doing, wearing one shoe, no bra or panties, torn blouse that was wet with cum and probably urine, cum and other fluids running down her thighs, makeup and hiar looking like she had been at a weekend party, still quite drunk and high, and the last thing she really remembers was sometime late Friday night after her clit was rubbed repeatedly with coke was removing her diaphragm (all the birth control she uses) to PROVE to the guys present that she was the freakiest white whore wife they ever met and spending the rest of the weekend in a drug alcool high fucking everyone that showed up......I gave her an ultimatum when she was finally lucid 2 days later.
Give it up and work on us, or she could go and our Son was staying with me. She missed the entire week of work, did some reflecting on where her life was headed if she kept doing what she was doing, and made the decision that staying together was the best idea. She did eventually start seeing other guys (I enjoyed that part of the situation) but stayed out of the entire interracial scene and had affairs with coworkers, and eventually her Boss/Lover, all white guys) and things went pretty well for the most part. She did get emotionally involved wiht one guy, and that was a hiccup but we got over that too.
Everything stopped when COVID and the lockdown started, but now that its over she has been talking about getting back involved with BBC but keep it under control this time. And that has reignited her desire for an interracial pregnancy, which if we do we want to do soon while we are young enough to enjoy that together.
Hope it works out well for you guys..........its a HARD thing to give up. The lifestyle is addictive, no doubt. Sometimes a break is a good thing.
CW