I'm trying! Real hard! But every time I think someone in the community is giving me advice that will help me remove the ideas from my brain, they tell me to give in or that I'm going to be converted, and it sends me right over. I feel helpless.

Maybe you should just try oral sex on a couple Black guys first. If nothing else it might at least sate your desire for Black cock. Actually in many ways worshipping a Black guy that way is more intimate. Being converted is mostly a mind thing and a desire to serve.

my wife has always has a looser pussy. I love it and if it gets stretched out, we don't care

don't let that stop you. go big and black

my wife isn't converted yet anyways. her pussy has been loose forever. the bbc she fucks don't change it

Tight pussy
 

Husband and I have been swinging/sharing for 40 yrs now. So I ask him if my pussy was loose after 100s of cocks fucking me ! He laughed and said yes at the end of the evening after you’ve been banged by 4 or 5 your a little loose and gaping. But he continued to say by the next day your pussy mussels have tightened up and your back to normal. Yes I’ve had 2 baby’s slide out of my pussy so I know I’m not as tight as when we got married.

Like you I’ve spread my legs for hundreds of men since Jr. High School including more gangbangs than I can remember. After all that and three kids my pussy is not as tight as it once was but it tightens back up after a good fucking no matter how many I give it up to....Becky:p

and I absolutely love that feeling of my sweet wife....

For awhile
 

My wife experienced 5 men over the years that were at the top end of the "big cock" chart. Two of them lived with us for about 3 years each in a "co-husband" lifestyle. The 2nd was a black man with a true measured thick 11 inches plus, and they fucked like newlyweds daily at least twice a day. Always right after he got home from work and again at bedtime during the week and weekends when they got up in the morning, sometime in the early afternoon and again at bedtime. Always after her 5 days of " out of service," as she called it, she had tightened up and he would have to take it easy on her until she was able to take him fully again.

A little side note was that when he was finally able to get her "stretched open again" and get his big cock completely in her, was that it had both of them worked up and he would begin pounding the hell out of her and she would be begging him to fuck her harder. All the other times he was able to slide right in and begin fucking her.

I noticed that a month or two after he moved to Oregon for his being promoted into a new position that she had tightened back up to "normal". From then on anytime she was fucked by a man in the thick 8-10 range she was back to normal in a day or so.

The short replay is: no it does not.
she just start setting higher standards for fucking.