Definitely appreciate your honest input. It's true it's amazing that she had her one and only interracial relationship before me. However, she definitely is interested in having children with me, etc. So my main focus is us first. It's good advice to let her lead the way with it. I do want to have a better conversation with her about her liking bigger dicks. Even though we have been together, it was something that finally came up again recently but wasn't able to really be delved into.
Once I have a chance to have some quality time to not be distracted with thing etc, I'm going to sit down and have a real talk with her about size etc. Like I know for sure she is satisfied enough with my own, but I also want to know truthfully if she "feel" a larger one. I'm pretty sure the answer is yes, and I just want her to be honest. I appreciate her trying to also not hurt my ego, but honestly it won't. I'd rather know the truth, which I feel she will give once we really have a chance to talk about it.
I would rather do that and then let her bring up the subject of BBC porn on her own. That way I know she is thinking about it on her own, even if she's thinking about it because she thinks I'm thinking about it. This will open the subject about that more too and allow us to talk about it more in depth. I only got to again explain the basics of it to her on a more scientific level about the psychology of sperm competition and how that was a part of it. How in a fantasy I would like to be the one that cums in her last. She understood that part of it. She knows that I definitely envy the men we watch with larger dicks and much harder, longer lasting erections. So I also get to fantasize that I am that large to a degree when having sex, if that's on my mind from watching together with her. She definitely knows I enjoy seeing the contrast in color from the white women with the black men.
She's said she'll never expect me to stop liking it, or stop watching. It's just not what excites her. So we will see. I will talk with her as I said above about her liking of bigger dicks. That conversation in of itself will be exciting, especially if she is more open and honest. I think she will be as she has been very open and honest so far, I hope so!
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