Maybe, maybe not.
It depends on whether you've agreed to this or not. Could you have fallen for her because she acts like such a bitch? If so, you have some masochistic tendencies. By tolerating her behavior, you've tacitly given your permission, and you are indeed a cuck. Like Eleanor Roosevelt said, "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent". Of course, many of us are in this lifestyle by choice, and so I'm not knocking it.
However, if you don't want this and she's really breaking your heart, then divorce her. Even if picturing her with the black guys is a turn-on, she's still treated you horribly. The outcome here will all depend on what you do and not what she does. I would suggest sorting through your options with the help of a good therapist. Best of luck. As Bill Clinton used to say, "I feel your pain".
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