Honey Bunch , you need to look inside yourself , and determine what you really want in life that will make you feel complete, fulfield and satisfied. either continue to be a secret sub slut or find a Black man than can give you everything that you enjoy from your husband as well as satisfiy your carnal desires. I don't know for sure , but I don't think your husband is a cuck and will not enjoy the idea of another man satisfying his wife or you wouldn't have to keep it a secret. These type of situations usually lead to a major life style change depending on how you choose .Weigh the pros and cons of what you want , make a decision and STICK with it. I faced this delima 30 years ago when I got married, I had to ask myself can I truely love a white woman or should I just stick with what everyone expects and marry a black woman, well it's been 30 years
I'm still married to her and I have never regreted my decision in truth it has made me grow and come to realize my full potential. It was a bumpy road but well worth the trip ....Good luck
