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I am new here (Aussie white guy 42) and still learning about this hot lifestyle - but I wanted to ask a few questions after reading the "Being Owned By A Bull" thread.

Clearly the poster is in a wonderful place and my congratulations go out to her with the deepest respect.

I want to encourage my wife (we have been married over 20 years) to try a BBC because I am sure she would thoroughly enjoy the experience. I have no doubt that once she tried it she would be addicted and the thought of her so absolutely satisfied leaves me feeling warm and fuzzy for her. I love her more than I thought it possible to love any woman and my only desire is to give her a wonderful life. I am the only man she has ever been with, she is 40.

In the opening post of the "Being Owned By A Bull" thread. the poster wrote that perhaps the next step in her amazing journey is to stop hubby from having sex with her altogether and to be honest this really scared the shit out of me. I have been reading these forums non stop for weeks and read similar over and over in numerous threads.

The concept of my wife refusing to share any love towards me on a physical level is quite honestly - terrifying. It's not the fact I would get no sex, it would simply just break my heart.

OK. So my wife is the type of chick that doesn't do things by half standards. When she gets into something she throws everything she has at it. I know her well enough to know that if she tried BBC she will then pursue it with everything she has got. We still have sex twice a day so her appetite is strong enough that I can see her riding random BBC every day while I am at work and the kids are at school. If it came to this I am absolutely happy for her and I have no poor feelings about such a relationship. If she is too sore or tired or just already satisfied from the bull fucking and our sexual frequency reduced down to once a week or even once a month then I would also likely be OK about this.

While I am straight, I know if she wanted to go down the path of me eating her creampies or sucking / fucking her bulls I would likely oblige such requests if it made her happy. At the end of the day this is all I really want. Personally these concepts don't appeal to me very much though. I would be more into holding her hand while she is getting hammered rather than coming into any form of contact with her BBC lover.

I got off track here... Sorry. My question is, how do you get to a place where you no longer wish to physically EVER share yourself with the man you married? More than likely the man who you will grow old with and will care for you?

I am starting to understand that the BBC experience must be just so amazing on many many levels.This is why I want to introduce it to my wife. But do I really run the risk of her no longer needing to share her love with me on a physical level? Of course this would be completely down to the individual but the number of times this seems to be happening is surprisingly high.

I have an amazing relationship with my wife on every level and I stop and tell myself I am crazy for risking everything. But I also feel like I am being selfish by not creating the BBC opportunity for her. I am pretty confused actually but also the first to admit the concept of her going completely black is incredibly hot. BBC gangbang with high numbers would be where I hope she found herself completely satisfied.

We also kept my wife lactating after our last child 8 years ago. I feed from her breast almost daily and these are intimate special moments together that I cherish. I don't like the thought of her feeding another man. Would most bulls likely be interested in her milk? It seems almost too submissive for a Bull to be feeding from the breast of a white girl.

I am also a little concerned about her having anal. She has never been interested in anal. I can appreciate and understand in the heat of the moment she might allow her bull to take her anal virginity and this is playing on my mind just a little. The fact that she might submit further to a stranger than she has ever allowed me does sit a little uneasy. But I do understand in the heat of the moment and this is a much small almost insignificant concern.

Sorry to rave. Any advice and thoughts on any of the above would be much appreciated.