I was with a pretty nice guy for several months, a sweetheart and smart. But right around the time we started dating I was having these most intense, distracting fantasies about some of the black men prior to him. I was completely incapable of ignoring those desires and thoughts, I tried my best to quell them, push them into the back of my mind, but reading erotica and watching IR online just wasn't cutting it. He eventually found out when I told him, reluctantly, as I knew how much it would hurt him. But I told him simply, the pleasure and complete bliss a black man gave me could not compare.
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