[JandGinSD]

I fell madly for Sidney Poitier when I saw him in To Sir With Love and Gues Who's Coming to Dinner. But I never saw black men as realistic sex partners when I was younger. Only Jewish boys were okay for me to date. Plus, in those days, in Chicago, there was a tense barrier betweem whies and blacks int he schools. It wasn't like today. There were anxieties, mistrusts, basically lots of people questioning each other's motives without going deeper. In honesty, I would have been scared to date a black guy then, even if it was okay. I still don't go for the thug facade thing that other women do.

Didn't think about it much, except for the occasional actor on TV that I thought was cute but didn't really seriously consider in a sexual way. Then my hisband and I started to consider swinging. I couldn't help but notice how ubiquitous the whole BBC thing was and also in porn. Got my attention and I realized there was a pit of lust for just that (but not only BBC) which I had denied. It was pretty confirmed when I was told more than once by black men that I was built perfect to fuck BBC. While that would have sounded vulgar and offensive in high school, it is now extremely flattering and personally very arousing.