[BustyBeth40]

In the relationship and the sex I have with my white boyfriend, I’m the one in control.
We for the most part have sex when I want to, though he can often convince me.
He’s very sweet and loving and romantic, and he knows how to push all my buttons.
And I need that in that part of my life.

The sex I have with black men is totally different. I see it as an escape from my control.
With them I just want to give myself up totally. With black men I don’t want any sweet talk
or romance or tenderness, I just want to be taken. And that’s where the cuckoldress side
of me comes in, because I get a thrill from having my boyfriend see me in such a vulnerable
surrendered state. I like for him to watch while a black man with a cock twice the size of his
pulls my hair and slaps my ass and calls me a bitch and a whore while he fucks me senseless
and fills my pussy with cum. Fortunately my boyfriend enjoys watching.

Giving up control is exciting and a huge turn on.

Having someone you love, understand and enjoy seeing your transformation
from their “in control” partner to a control less sex crazed black cock whore
is probably an even bigger turn on. because then it's about more than me.

Of course even when I "give up control” I’m the one who decides when and where,
and I’m the one who allows it to happen,, so,,, hmmmm???? Oh well as far as the
guys know,, I’m just a bouncy sex toy to be played with and used as they wish.

So, they're the ones in control,, right??