[Tinywhiteclitsissy]

I started using meth cocaine and ecstasy when I was 14 years old because I met a dealer and we became really cool with each other so I started using all the time, at this age I didn't realize the kind of impact drugs has on your life,, and when I used especially meth,, it made my already small and below average penis shrink to an incredibly tiny pathetic size and at first I was horrified by this side effect but I was also big time into wearing women's sexy panties and lingerie,, I was stealing from my mom and my stepsister and I seriously took the sexiest and sluttiest lingerie they had and I really loved how when my penis shrank down to this ridiculous itty bitty size... well what I did love about it was that I could fit into any kind of panties no matter how little or skimpy they were I was always a perfect fit and I thought that was super hot and sexy,, and when I used these drugs ( especially meth) I would get out of my mind horny,, to where it's almost uncontrollable and it became mandatory when I used that I had to dress up in sexy little panties and lingerie,, and I would watch all kinds of porn videos,, any that I could get my hands on, and my mom had several interracial porn movies,, and I took one of them and I was high,,, all dressed up in sexy pink lingerie and I started watching this porn and this was my first time seeing a black mans penis,, and this black stallion had such a big beautiful huge superior black cock,, a thick 11 inches and I was sooo shocked by the size and I thought it was sooo amazing and impressive and I was actually quite intimidated by it,, and it definitely made me feel insecure about my tiny size,, I have a very very tiny little pathetic 1 1/2 inch white clit between my legs and it's always been sooo embarrassing and hard cuz all my friends were having sex and I couldn't/wouldn't because I was way too scared to show my tiny little penis size to any girl,, and there were girls that wanted to hook up and when I would always find a way out of it they all started thinking I was gay,, ever since I started using drugs and watching porn I realized that I am very bisexual and I'm extremely attracted to white and black men with nice big sexy cocks,, but im especially obsessed with big beautiful huge superior black dicks and if I had the choice between the most beautiful girl to have sex with or a huge hung black stud that I can dress up for and worship his giant mighty black cock ,,,, then im picking the big black stallion every time and I realized just how turned on I was by bbc when I saw this huge black stud on the porn video and it was my first real feelings of being attracted to another man,, and it was the beginning to my very serious case of penis envy that I have,,, and I just wanted to have sex with this sexy black man and be his little white sissy sex slave,,, and between the drugs and my crossdressing and my endless lust and desire for taboo kinky sex ,, especially for gay sex when I was high,,,, I had my young mind shaped into a very different kind of sexual way where I was just sooo adventurous and wanted to experience all these different kinds of sexual fantasies and situations and im telling you sooo much happened between 14 and 19 when I went into the army,,, but I had some incredible huge black cock experiences in the army and man somedays I sure miss it,, and I truely miss being all dressed up like a little sissy white faggot bitch and then doing everything I could to sexually pleasure my huge black daddy,,, and his pleasure was my pleasure,, but when I was getting buttfucked so good and deep just how I love it and for a long time ,, after a certain while of that deep penetration,,,, all of the sudden I would start yelling and then sperm would start squirting out of my tiny little white clit and it would be the most incredible orgasms and I would actually have a little bit of a hard time getting fucked cuz I just came so hard and it would make me want to take a break,, but no way not with my big black daddy getting his fuck on we weren't stopping and I always preferred he came in my mouth or all over my face instead of cumming inside my ass,,, I just felt like it was wasted there and I would much rather have my face covered in black mans sperm or in my mouth so I could taste it and eat it,, I'm equally as obsessed with eating black mans sperm as I am with huge black dick,,, I just can't get enough of black mans sperm and I truely believe that whiteboys were born with a natural instinct to desire and crave eating black mans sperm, cuz no other race is as obsessed with eating another mans cum like we are, and I just think there's something sooo symbolic about a little tiny dick white sissy,,, all dressed up and in between his girls legs and licking up every drop of that black mans sperm ,,, it's such a gay act and I love when girls have belittled me so badly for having such a tiny little pathetic white clit that isn't even 2 inches,,, and the fact that im a total crossdresser,,, and then my love and obsession with bbc was something girls would use to humiliate me and put me in my place , and make me fully aware of how inferior my white babypenis is,, and I grew to love this humiliation sooo damn much that I crave it often, and I still get high just for the sexual pleasure and desires and fantasies and experiences,,, it wouldn't have been the same without the drugs,, cuz the kind of mindframe the drugs put me in is sooo out of this world and I can take a huge black cock in my gay white ass deep for a really long long time and I love it so much,,, getting buttfucked is probably my favorite experience besides tasting and eating black mans cum or having my face covered in black mans sperm,, cuz that truely makes me feel like such a little white sissy slut and it just shows how much my huge black daddy owns me