Count me in also as an otherwise "normal" white male who browses here in secret. Not really into the cuckold scene like some are. Just enjoys looking and wishing and hoping like so many others do. Wife is not into doing anything outside of just her and I in the bedroom. Funny story as to how I came to like the IR stuff however. I'll be brief and give it to you in a nutshell.
When she and I met and got married a little over 11 yr ago, I told her all about my past and thought she did the same. After we had been married a few months, I found out that some years earlier when she was single (before we met) she had a one night stand with a black guy who had been trying to get with her for awhile. She admitted it was true and alcohol was involved so that was a big factor in why she finally gave in. The reason she didn't tell me was because she was afraid I might not have married her if I had known. Which I MIGHT not have even though I never really considered myself racist.
After that it was kinda hard to deal with knowing what she had done. I had always thought IR porn was great to watch but wasn't sure I wanted a gal who did any of it. I finally settled it in my mind that I had secretly harbored a desire to have a woman like that and when I admitted it to myself, then when we had sex I would get her to tell me about it and the sex was incredible. After a long time of talking and trying to convince her that I'd love to see her do it in person, she would almost at times be convinced to do it. I had placed personal ads and would contact guys who were ready to meet. However, then she would get cold feet and decide she wasn't into the idea of getting another guy to join us in the bedroom.
So, thats where I'm at today after almost 10 years. Just still looking and wishing and hoping. I'm trying not to give up however. Maybe one day it will happen.
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