I have used the word....
in the bedroom and during very intense sexual situations, where it has a totally different meaning than in casual conversation or racially derogatory conversation. I can't remember ever using it outside the bedroom, even growing up despite being from a small mostly white town.
I really enjoyed being seen out dating black guys too, but maybe that's seen as "racist" too? It turned me on knowing other people knew by the way I was dressed and acting with my Black Lovers that I was also sexually involved with them. I loved the hateful glares as much as the jealous looks from other white wives/girlfriends!! LOL
I even fell seriously in love with one Black Lover, to the extent that we discussed ending our marriages to be together permanently....but on the end decided that destroying two families for our desires wasn't the way to go. So a serious relationship with a Black Lover is/was an obvious possibility for me (still happily married to white hubby). Point being, I would not eliminate someone simply because of their race. Mutual desire/attraction/life desires is what would be most important.
J (the wife)
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