[Djallday]

Well I'm not gay I wouldn't say because I don't find guys attractive. I don't check them out, I wouldn't want a relationship with one, nothing at all in the way of what my relationships with girls are. However, I do have an extremely odd addiction as it is. I know it's not the norm for most but I will dabble in partying by "blowing clouds" and when I do so I can't refrain or resist looking up black cock and reminiscing. It's not just the drug that makes me want to suck black dick, but it makes it so much more intense. When I'm on it I would prefer sucking cock in and getting fucked. I first tried to this without the use of alerting substances and it was ok. But then when I tried that stuff I just go nuts Everytime. It's great for the sexual fulfillment but honestly I feel guilty or gay because of society and it's judgement. Also, when I'm with a guy I get like most horny bbc lovers and just worship the dick and get nasty as anyone and all. What I mean is I do my thing and for example once they are going to finish, I make sure I get a face full of cream as well as my mouth, then rubbing the hard smooth dark monster cock all on my face to make it glisten with cum as I start to gently suck off his sperm from the head of his cock. I Jack off watching this in a mirror or add filmed and will cum... When I cum, I'm feeling a lot different. I feel kinda ashamed and embarrassed 🥺. I don't kk now what to make of this and would love advice...