As for me, I am happily married to a wonderful black male who treats me like a queen yet knows my desires well enough to bring in other black men and their ladies to provide me with the variety that we both crave.
Most women start out in their lives wanting that dream life, a hubby, 2.5 kids, and a nice home and car. Beings that most young women(even the ones who like black men right off) dont want to incur societies stigma of being a black mans slut, they find and marry a man of their own race. As years go on, they find themselves less worried about what other people will think or find themselves unfulfilled in their relationship. Some find the courage to seek out and fulfil their desires, many find that it was just a fantasy that they have now fulfilled and return to their "normal" life feeling content that they have at least walked on the wild side, even if for just a brief time.
A very few women like me express their choice of companionship and accept the stigma that society pastes to us. I know what is like to be discriminated against, just like if not worse than a southern born black person. We are not accepted by either race, to a lot of white people I am a "N" fucking hoe and to a large percetage of black women, I am a white bitch looking to steal their men, it's a no win situation.
A very good friend of mine and our neighbor for several years was seperated from her husband (who was white). During this time she expressed her long supressed desire to be with at least one black man in her life, just to compare both worlds. She kept dropping more and more pointed hints until I agreed to set her up with my hubby. I honestly thought that she would back pedal at some point but she agreed to it with the stipulation that I would be in the room for support. The night arrived, our kids were all farmed out for the night and her and hubby got down to buisness (lol). Well she enjoyed it very much and began attending our swing group parties reguarly and even dated (on the down low) several other men of the group between parties. After about 8 months she had fulfilled all of her kinky, black cock desires and returned to her husband. She told me that her seperation was allowed her to fulfill her fantasies for the dark side but she had come to understand that she loved her husband deeply even though the sex side of their relationship lacked the fire she felt with my hubby or other black men. She knew that her husband would never go for the idea of having a black lover so she ended her activities with us and is now back in a monogomas relationship with her husband.
We women are much more complex than 99.9% of men out their, we have soo many dreams and desires that we fear to ever explore. Don't try to out think us, you will lose...hehehe
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