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[larjonesz]

My email address is larjonesz@yahoo.com

I have two intense needs that I cannot ignore anymore. I am a brown-skinned, middle-aged, African-American male. I do not drink, smoke, or take drugs. I work every day. I don't fool around [Well, I'm trying to now].

I am of that generation of African-American men that drooled over the dream of having a white woman. I'm not at all ashamed of that. It is what it is. And any black man my age who denies that he has drooled over the vision of having a white woman, is lying through his teeth.

I have never even so much as touched a white woman. My dream is to spend time with a very beautiful, young white woman. I'm almost desperate for the experience.

So, I am looking for someone who would get a kick--a real joy--out of helping me to almost WORSHIP her; someone who would also understand how much pleasure she is bringing to me.

I want to feel that white skin. I want to run my fingers through her hair [I'll list the ideal attributes that I want (If I'm lucky), below]. I want to be inside her shaved...you know what. OH, GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just the thought of that!!

White women have been like this forbidden fruit that is always so close, but so far: magazines (Playboy, especially), TV, movies; on a bus, a train, at work. But, I never had the nerve to approach a white woman. In my day, they wore dresses. They'd get on the bus, cross their legs, and show their thighs up to their behinds. I'd be sitting in the seat across. There was nothing I could do but look and SUFFER. The whiteness of the skin: I don't know what it does to my mind. I'm tired of suffering.

As regards my second desire, I need deep, deep, deep affection SO bad. I have a mate that is a religious fanatic. Need I say more? I need help. If I cannot get what I need for free, I suppose I'd have to make an exchange [if you know what I'm saying]. But, one way or another, I just HAVE to have this done. I have to. I imagine it, every day, all day.

To have a beautiful white woman who can give deep affection, AND intense physical pleasure, would be paradise for me. Just paradise. There could be nothing better--NOTHING. She would be SO special to me.

Here are the desired [but not required] attributes:

1. White
2. Young, between the ages of 18 and 24 (but up to 30 is cool)
3. Soft, smooth skin. Hopefully, skin with very little blemish
4. Fuller lips than the average white woman's lips
5. Soft lips. And she must be willing to kiss for a LONG time.
6. Brown eyes
7. REALLY blonde hair, with body. Hopefully, long hair.
8. Bangs
9. Perfect, playboy bunny shape, but NOT skinny (and not fat)
10. Nice-sized breasts
11. Tall--perhaps from 5'7" to 5'10"
12. DEEP knowledge on how to take a man's mind away from him. I don't even know exactly what I mean by that, but I have a FEELING about what that means. I want to be DESTROYED with "love," or with deep affection.
13. Really knows how to make love, and I mean ESPECIALLY teasing, foreplay, etc.

The above is the IDEAL. What could I do without? I don't need the bangs. The breasts don't have to be that big, I guess [but, I mean, HEY!]

Now, please understand: I am a humble person. I'm only ASKING for what I want--just being honest. I do not mean to put anyone down. I just have my desires, that's all. I am told that I am fairly handsome, but that's for others to decide. I am a nice person.

I must tell you that my "thingy" is not that big--just 5 inches when hard--maybe 5 1/2. So, I can't hut anybody.

Naturally, I am really afraid of disease. I used to go to Backpage (an escort website), "shopping." But I could never go forward, for fear of disease. I still worry about that.

But, I am going INSANE now, with my desire to fulfill my dream of having a beautiful, young, blonde white woman.

In previous relationships, I was the giver. My daddy taught me and my brother like that. I could "hold it" for HOURS. Of course, that's when I was young.

Now? I can be a giver, I guess. But, to be honest, I AM IN NEED. I need to be smothered with affection. I want to be the receiver. I want to RECEIVE lots of teasting [ear-licking (drives me STONE INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!), kissing, etc. I want to feel again, see. I want to feel. I NEED to feel again.

Let's see...

Well, my mate is leaving out of town sometime in June or July, to a religious convention. She'll be gone for one week. That is when I want to begin. Well, maybe before that, if I can be convinced by someone.

I apologize if I have broken any etiquette or protocols. I typed in, "interracial sex Chicago," and got this site. I probably should have participated in the forum--taken my time. But, I'm desperate to have my dream come true.

I really hope that someone out there knows what I am going through.

I want ONE person--someone that can possess my mind. But, I have also been thinking about the dream of having TWO white women, both blondes, both beautiful, both possessing all the attributes I listed above. I imagine one licking inside and outside of my left ear, and sticking her tongue in and out of it; and I imagine the other one doing the same thing to my right ear--both doing that at the SAME time. Now that is one of my DEEPEST fantasies.

I get off work at 5:00 p.m. I live in Evanston. She works in the evening, and gets home at about 9:00. So, I could see someone, I guess, some evenings between 6:00 and 8:00 p.m.

Saturdays, during the day, would be just PERFECT, as she's gone all day to her religious thing, although "love" during the day might not be so attractive to some ladies, I really do not know. But I'm in NEED.

If no one here can help me, then PLEASE, I beg you, refer me to someone who can. Thank you very much.

Yours,

Larry